cute clothes
kay you might like this
http://www.modcloth.com/

I'm trying to learn to be more perceptive. To be less oblivious

I'm trying to learn who my real friends are.
I'm trying to learn whether or not I am alone in this world or not.
I'm trying to figure myself out.
I'm trying to find something that makes me genuinely happy.
i need to learn what makes me happy.
I need to stop trusting everyone.
I'm gullible, and naive. and i need to stop it.

got my hair cut today
dying it right now
dark brown


pictures to come

I'm watching Freedomland
and it's so hard to watch it.
Because of what this 4 year old kid says
"if you go, you'll be sorry"
and it makes me think about my Nephew
and about myself
and about my niece

..I feel horrible
all the things i've ever said to my parents.
all my suicide attempts
all my depression.
I feel guilty.
but part of its not my fault
and ...im just sad...

WE NEED EMPLOYEES
Come Apply At My Starbucks!
Health Benefits for Part Time Employees
Starting Pay 7 Dollars PLUS TIPS
It's like a family to me



WE ARE NEED PEOPLE.
After the holidays, We're losing a few people and we're gonna be so understaffed..like CRAZY

You can use me as a reference!
COME APPLY, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
I can't academically afford to be working more then 20 hours a week and if we don't get more people. Im gonna fail another semester

There is something wrong with me, and I don't know what it is.

Randomly, I start crying.

I want to quit Starbucks.
I hate working with Lizl.
I'm not fond of working with John-Mark.
It's just not enjoyable anymore.

I want to drop out of school.
I want to do something drastic.
I want to fix whatever is wrong with me, but I don't know what is wrong, so I don't have an answer to my problem..

It's sad...I keep thinking more and more about quitting

FIRST SENTENCE OF EVERY MONTH OF 2007 TO SUMMARIZE MY YEAR
JANUARY
Argh...
Harvest moon Has me addicted

FEBRUARY
I just had a dream where it began that I was with my friends like Liz, and Cliff--and that was weird enough....

MARCH
Stolen from a Community that does Days through pictures, and i felt I wanted to post my Thursday through pictures, but I didn't want to follow their rules. So...Tada!

APRIL

yes, i am relieved to know that i am not a gollum.

MAY
Vote for me if you *says in a leprechaun voice* want me gold

xD

JUNE
i kinda picked up smoking again...

JULY
So today was an action packed day!

AUGUST
So today was a decent day.

SEPTEMBER
So Friday night
I closed with Randy and Astrid

OCTOBER
AM BEING DR. BRIAN SHMAEFSKY FOR HALLOWEEN

NOVEMBER
there were no entries in november

DECEMBER

I had a dream about dating one of my best friend's ex-boyfriends......



 well i must say

that was an INTERESTING year

I'm starting to build my list of new year's resolutions:

1. Lose 10 pounds through: Stop drinking sodas, Eating Fast food(so much)
2. Go to the school gym at least once a week
3. Spend at least 3 hours a week reading something
4. Cleaning my room at least every 2 weeks.
5. Doing laundry at least once every 2 weeks
6.Get my tongue pierced/nose repierced
7. Organize room--get rid of excess crap
8. Return people's thing Ive bored.

and Im still adding more

IM only a LITTLE bit hung over right now

but my back is killing me

From Christy: Stitch and Bitch NAtion book

From my sister/bro in law: 3 six packs of Smirnoff beer :D :D :D

From MomDad:
cloths
W juliet no.1-14
socks
pjs
sushi jewelery :D Ask me about it
jewelery

Kay:an awesome fucking book

GPA SO FAR
2.34

Ugh!
Why must you randomly start pouring down rain!!!!!!

I had a dream about dating one of my best friend's ex-boyfriends......


weird
But ...Im actually considering it....


......hmm
but I want to date Matt
But Im pretty sure that is not going to happen.
Cliff, Bryan, Jim, Matt, D, SECRET...none of them are going to happen...
I think Cliff is either A. Avoiding me B. Being his usual irresponsible self
Bryan has a gf
Jim is 32
Matt is trying to get back with Traci
D....is going to a far away college and probably doesnt even realize I exist...
Secret Is staying a secret because its NEVER HAPPENING

Aimee is in New Orleans and she isnt a boy..

other secret is....never gonna happen....


And I had a dream about dating Josh, Kelsie's ex boyfriend
Weird

its too much work to log in and log out
im sticking to valentinestella


if you don't add me on there
I can't see your friend's only entries.

STOLEN FROM NEIL GAIMAN'S JOURNAL

"The Hype Machine is a wonderful music discovery engine and internet music channel, and I've loved using it ever since I learned it on the Fabulist. Now, as you learn from the latest Fabulist posting, it's going to take 10,000 of us leaving the Hype machine window open to launch the new version of Hype Machine. They have about 1800 people right now, so if you wouldn't mind going to http://hypem.com/new and not closing the window I'd be very grateful. Thank you.'

I'm doing it